Lana Condor Said She Felt “Horrible Mentally” After The Success Of “To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before”

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“No one knew.”

We know you loved To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before.

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The third and final film in Netflix’s To All the Boys series, To All the Boys: Always and Forever, drops on Feb. 12 — and in an interview with Self, series star Lana Condor opened up about how the success of the first film affected her mental health.

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The first film in the series — To All the Boys I’ve Loved Before — came out in 2018, while the sequel — To All the Boys: P.S. I Still Love You — came out in 2020.

“[The movie] was received way better than I had ever imagined in my wildest dreams,” Condor explained. “It changed much of my life very quickly.”

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The film’s success also coincided with her set time on the SyFy TV series Deadly Class — and Condor said that she felt overloaded as a result.

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“I was just saying yes to everything because it’s a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity,” Condor said, “and you want to capitalize on it, and you want to feel like you’re fully embracing everything.”

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The result, Condor said, is that she “never felt more horrible mentally. I was so burned out.”

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“I would go home at night and I couldn’t speak. I couldn’t eat. I couldn’t sleep. I would shake going to bed and shake waking up because it was just so much stimulation.”

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Eventually, Condor approached her team to let them know how she was feeling: “I had this moment where I just was in tears, telling them that I don’t feel OK. And they were all shocked because I wasn’t open about my feelings. No one knew. When I had that conversation with them, it was like a new beginning. Now I know the power of sharing that.”

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“My mom and my dad are so supportive,” she continued. “We’ve had conversations about ‘Lana, you need to stop. You’re clearly unhappy.’ … [And I said,] ‘OK, let’s figure out the root of that.’ My parents have been a great sounding board.”

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Condor’s boyfriend, Anthony de la Torre, also provided emotional support: “He is so great at communicating, and he genuinely wants to know how I feel and what’s going on in my head, which [makes me] feel so loved and taken care of.”

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Condor concluded that, since she decided to be open with those around her about her struggles, she’s now in a place “where I feel like I can do what I love and also be the person that I want to be for myself.”

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